Do you need to cry? HE LOVES US DEARLY EVEN THOUGH WE MIGHT FEEL LIKE WE CAN’T DO IT ANYMORE.

"It's not what you go through that makes you strong: it is how you handle the situation that gives you strength." — Tanya R. Liverman
"My best testimonies are from the times I thought I couldn't survive." — Tanya R. Liverman

At times we all need a reminder that HE SEES us and uses us in ways we can't imagine. (Me)

HE LOVES US DEARLY EVEN THOUGH WE MIGHT FEEL LIKE WE CAN’T DO IT ANYMORE.

Sometimes you just need a good cry and when you have to be strong for so many other things, using a movie as an excuse works well. Many of you don’t know that our granddaughter, Aubrey, (27) went into the hospital on April 24^th. She has endocarditis and some other things that are very frightening. I always loved Advent Hospitals but the care Aubrey got at the one at Deland was not up to their normal level. They sent her to the one in Daytona saying she needed an operation on her heart valve, but then she was not well enough for it. Then they sent her back to Deland and said they were just going to continue with antibiotic treatments. With the COVID19  the visitation rules are changed. I finally got to see her for the first time this last Monday. While I was there, she got the chills then I felt her forehead and it seemed warm. All the time I was there no one came in to check on her unless I went out to get them or she called and waited. So, before I left, I mentioned they should probably take her temperature, but the nurse said she’d check on her later.

That night they released her to just get out-patient infusion treatments. By Friday, they said she had a fever when she went for her infusion and also now Pulmonary aneurysms.  Last night they sent her to Shands and it seems the same. They say she needs an operation then say maybe not. It is very frustrating. The sad thing is they say she can only see one visitor for the duration of her stay; it must be the same visitor. I was ready to go today, even just to sit in the waiting room, but they are not allowing people in hospitals. Ashley and I helped by watching baby Mathis, she more than me, as since he’s a busy toddler and I’m old, it just works out that way. I try to tag team with her. I just pray for Aubrey and for baby Mathis who misses his mom and is confused.

So Bill and I watched a movie tonight, The Art of Racing in the Rain. You will smile, you will cry and if life seems hard, a good cry can be cleansing. I know I needed to.

If you haven’t seen the movie, watch it. Tame by today’s standards, but precious as a family movie. https://movieweb.com/the-art-of-racing-in-the-rain-trailer/

“Then Simeon blessed them and said to Mary, His mother, for the fall and rising of many in Israel and for a sign which shall be spoken against (yes, a sword will pierce through your own soul also) that the hearts of many may be revealed.” Luke 2:34-35